You have asked for permission to marry, why should I restrain myself?

Chapter 373: Previous Life (7) She couldn’t understand Xiao Yan! She had never understood him.

Lin Zhaoyue clenched her fists, glanced at Xiao Yan's bed, her eyes red.

Hate?

I hate myself.

But compared to the fact that her family is still alive and her son is still alive, her hatred now seems to be more of a concealed anger.

He didn't tell her that he saved her family, and he didn't tell her that he saved her son. What was his motive?

He said he didn't love her, but he took such a big risk to save her family. He also loved her and his son very much and did everything himself.

He said he loved her, but he hid the truth from her and ignored her when she was tortured in the cold palace.

She didn't believe that he was unaware of what Liu Yiyi had done.

She really couldn't understand Xiao Yan, or rather, she had never understood him...

Lin Qingchen paused for a moment and then said:

"I went to the capital this time because my mother couldn't sleep well recently. She said she dreamed that you were crying in pain and missed me. When she was packing your things, she accidentally broke the Luban lock that my eldest brother gave you. A map fell out of it. There were some place names on it. I went to see two of them. They were both contact points of the previous dynasty. I think these should be the contact stations of the previous dynasty."

Luban Lock? A contact point for people from the previous dynasty?

Lin Zhaoyue suddenly remembered some things from her childhood. She was ten years old at that time. Her eldest brother was guarding the border and was not often at home, but he would send her some small things from time to time.

Jewelry, spices, dresses, beautiful jade, and once he sent her a box of strange things, all of which were very clever mechanical puzzle toys, including the Luban lock.

She tried to open the Lu Ban lock for two days but failed, so she put it at the bottom of the box and it gathered dust.

Generally, she would not throw away the things others gave her, no matter how much she disliked them. She would put them in a box.

She didn't quite understand why her elder brother would put such an important thing into the Lu Ban lock he gave her.

Based on what the eldest brother knew about her, he should have known that she couldn't open it.

Is Big Brother doing this to save his life or for some other reason?

When the Lin family was "executed", she knew that Liu Yiyi was also involved. Is this related to this list?

Lin Qingchen's voice continued.

“The people of the previous dynasty infiltrated very deeply, inside and outside the palace. Or maybe it was like our Lin family, who infiltrated for more than ten years. We don’t know whether the people around us are human or ghost.

This is a serious matter. I came to Kyoto to hand over this list to Xiao Yan, but I didn’t expect…”

She happened to encounter Xiao Yun's coronation ceremony, but her own sister died tragically in the cold palace.

Jiangnan and the capital are far apart, and it is not known whether Xiao Yan intentionally isolated themselves from the information, but they had not received any news at all in Jiangnan before.

It was only when he arrived in the capital that he learned that Xiao Ying was going to be crowned queen.

Previously, Xiao Yun said that he wanted to send Lin Zhaoyue to the cold palace to avoid being attacked, but he never said that he wanted to appoint a new queen.

He felt something was wrong at that moment, so he quickly slipped into the cold palace, where he saw his sister had been tortured to the point where she was almost unrecognizable. He watched her die in his arms.

At that time, let alone handing the list to Xiao Ying, he wanted to kill everyone in the palace and then cut Xiao Ying into pieces and grind his bones to scatter ashes.

But it was useless, he could not do anything. He could only escape in disgrace holding his sister's body, but was finally caught.

His sister died tragically in the cold palace, and Lin Qingchen was filled with anger and hatred. If the people of the previous dynasty wanted to fight against the Xiao family, then let them fight. No matter who won, it would be revenge.

After seeing Lin Zhaoyue's tragic death in the cold palace, he no longer planned to hand the list to Xiao Yan.

But now...my sister and Xiao Ying's child is still alive!

His nephew's surname is Xiao and he has Xiao Yin's blood flowing in his veins.

If the world really became the domain of the Ye family, Xiao Jingchen would definitely not survive. And their Lin family has more than nine clans. Given the brutality of the Ye family, anyone who has had any contact with the Xiao or Lin family would be killed.

My sister has the right to know and the right to decide on the list.

Lin Qingchen looked at the chaise longue and said:

"So Zhaozhao, do you want this order to be in Xiao Yan's hands?"

Does she want to?

Lin Zhaoyue was slightly startled, then walked to Xiao Yan's bedside and looked at him.

Xiao Yun was still unconscious, with her silver hair hanging on the smooth brocade quilt. Her skin, which had been frozen pale, now had a rosy glow, and her thin purple lips had returned to their warm, deep red color.

Because of the coma, the delicate and beautiful facial features now looked gentle and harmless.

The list contains the contact points of the previous dynasty. With Xiao Yan's ability, if he gets the list, he will be able to catch them all in one fell swoop.

But if the Ye family seizes power, there will be great suffering, rivers of blood will flow, and Chen'er's life will be in danger.

The hatred that people of the previous dynasty had for the Lin family was no less than that for the Xiao family. By then, the Lin family would truly cease to exist.

Lin Qingchen didn't get a response, and knew that Lin Zhaoyue couldn't respond, so she said:

"I'll call Chen'er over, and ask him to pass on the message later."

Lin Qingchen quickly brought Xiao Jingchen in.

When Xiao Jingchen came in, he saw Lin Zhaoyue beside his father's bed and walked over.

"Auntie."

he shouted.

Lin Zhaoyue turned around and saw the little glutinous rice ball walking towards her, and her heart softened.

This is the child she gave birth to after eight months of pregnancy.

She reached out and touched his head, saying:

"Tell my mother a message and tell my fourth uncle that it's okay."

Xiao Jingchen liked his mother touching his head, he squinted his eyes in enjoyment and said to Lin Qingchen:

"Fourth uncle, my mother said it's okay."

Lin Qingchen was silent for a while, then nodded and said:

"okay, I get it."

Late at night, Lin Qingchen saw that Xiao Jingchen insisted on staying here to accompany his father, and she didn't dare to leave him alone. Although there were guards guarding outside, she was still worried.

Xiao Ying was very cold, and Lin Qingchen was afraid that Xiao Ying would pass the cold to Xiao Jingchen, so she had someone bring in a bed, intending to carry Xiao Jingchen to rest on it when he felt sleepy.

As a result, he yawned three times, narrowed his eyes, and climbed onto the bed and fell asleep without knowing when.

Looking at Lin Qingchen who was snoring softly, Lin Zhaoyue smiled.

Lin Qingchen traveled all the way from Jiangnan to the capital, witnessed her death with her own eyes, and was chased by Xiao Yan. She was already exhausted.

Although I rested for three days, it is clear that I haven't adjusted yet.

Xiao Jingchen looked up and met the smile on Lin Zhaoyue's face.

From the time he met A Niang until now, A Niang has never smiled at his father.

He remembered something, pursed his lips slightly, and said:

"Mother, did Chen'er hurt your heart today?"

When asking this, Xiao Jingchen didn't even dare to look up at Lin Zhaoyue.

Lin Zhaoyue was stunned for a moment before she remembered what he was saying.

She half squatted down, stretched out her hand and pinched his face, saying:

"When I found out that Chen'er chose your father over me, I was a little sad."

Hearing Lin Zhaoyue's words, Xiao Jingchen hurriedly said:

"Chen'er didn't abandon my mother."

Seeing his red eyes, Lin Zhaoyue rubbed his head and said:

"Yes, mother knows. Chen'er said today that he didn't want your father to die. He feels that he has betrayed mother, right?"

Xiao Jingchen's eyes were evasive, and he lowered his head, and nodded after a long while.

"Chen'er, you did a great job. You don't have to feel guilty, let alone sorry for me! You are my father's son, and it was my father who raised you. Saving your father is what you should do! If Chen'er disregarded your father's life or death, I would be really sad! I am very fortunate and happy that our Chen'er is a kind and filial child."

Xiao Jingchen raised his head and looked at her, with a faint light in his eyes, and said:

"Really?"

After seeing Lin Zhaoyue nod, the little face that had been heavy all day finally relaxed and a relaxed smile appeared on her face.

Lin Zhaoyue also curled the corners of her lips and said:

"Chen'er, your mother and your father are adults' business. No matter what happens to your mother and your father, you will always be their son. You don't have to make a decision like today, understand?"

Although Xiao Jingchen was precocious, he still could not understand the love-hate entanglement of adults, and could only nod his head vaguely.

Lin Zhaoyue touched his head and said:

"Chen'er is so good. It's very late now. Can Chen'er go to bed first?"

Xiao Jingchen is a child and his work and rest schedule is always regular. This is the first time he has stayed up late tonight, and his body couldn't take it anymore.

My eyelids were so heavy that they kept fighting, but I was trying hard to keep them open.

Xiao Jingchen looked at Xiao Yan on the bed, shook his head, and said in a baby voice:

"No, Chen'er wants to wait for father to wake up."

Lin Zhaoyue looked at his red eyes and felt sorry for him. After a while, she coaxed him:

"Chen'er, go to sleep first. Mother will look after your father. If he has any problems, Mother will wake him up, okay?"

Xiao Jingchen thought for a long time and was still a little hesitant.

"It's okay, mother will take care of it. Your father will probably wake up tomorrow. Go to sleep, Chen'er!"

Xiao Jingchen pursed his lips and said:

"Chen'er wants to sleep with father."

Lin Zhaoyue looked at Xiao Yan on the bed. His face had long regained its blush and the coldness had subsided. She nodded and said:

"Okay, go ahead, Chen'er!"

Xiao Jingchen then had someone bring hot water to the bathroom to soak his feet and wash his face.

When changing his underwear, he grabbed the silk underwear and looked at Lin Zhaoyue shyly.

Lin Zhaoyue knew that he was shy, so she said:

"Then Chen'er, change. Mother, go out first."

When Lin Zhaoyue floated out, it had been snowing outside for who knows how long.

The snow fluttered in the air, covering the ground with white.

Lin Zhaoyue wandered around and occasionally ran into guards on patrol.

The feet stepped on the fine snow, making a crackling sound.

Lin Zhaoyue carefully observed the decoration of the bamboo garden.

The bamboo garden here is different from the bamboo garden where she was imprisoned by Xiao Yan after her rebirth. The decoration styles are completely different.

In the bamboo garden where she was imprisoned, Xiao Yan's personal style was very obvious.

But now this place is very similar to the small courtyard where they lived among the common people when Xiao Ying was demoted.

Is that study room...

She suddenly remembered something and her cheeks felt hot.

Ever since Xiao Yan started eating meat, Lin Zhaoyue felt that he was particularly lustful.

Whenever I have free time, I want to play with her all the time.

She liked him and wanted to stick to him all the time.

When he was handling official business, as long as he didn't mind, she would serve him with writing materials or read storybooks.

Occasionally, when she seemed to be asleep, he would wake her up with a kiss, and then he would carry her to the bedroom and torment her.

Later, he felt that it was too troublesome to carry the baby around, so he had a lounge built in the study.

When it comes to love affairs, Xiao Yan is actually a romantic.

In addition to making herself smell nice every day, she also decorates her room beautifully.

Whether in the bedroom or the lounge, the floor is covered with thick layers of fox fur, which are covered with flower petals every day. The room is hung with layers of translucent and soft gauze, making it hazy.

At first she didn't know why he hung so many gauze, but after he tossed her around many times she realized that it was for her to hold on to to steady her body.

Although his life was a little hard during the three years he was demoted, it seemed absurd and beautiful to Lin Zhaoyue.

During those three years, she thought she had touched Xiao Yan's heart, but when they returned to the East Palace and he brought Liu Yiyi back, everything returned to normal.

She occasionally couldn't help but wonder if those three years were just an illusion...

"Mother, Chen'er is fine."

Xiao Jingchen's voice came over, breaking Lin Zhaoyue's thoughts. She shook her head and threw away all those memories that shouldn't have existed.

When she floated into the room, Xiao Jingchen had already climbed onto Xiao Yan's bed and was lying beside him, looking at her with his dark eyes open.

Lin Zhaoyue touched his head and said:

"Okay, go to sleep!"

Xiao Jingchen closed his eyes obediently.

After closing his eyes for a while, he was so sleepy that he soon fell asleep.

Lin Zhaoyue listened to Xiao Jingchen's even breathing, and the corners of her mouth curled up unconsciously.

It turns out that just watching her son sleep would make her feel happy unconsciously.

This feeling is amazing.

Looking at his chubby little face, my heart feels soft.

Seeing that Xiao Jingchen was sleeping soundly, Lin Zhaoyue sat on the chair that Xiao Jingchen had just moved to the bedside.

The night was long and she was so bored that her eyes glanced at Xiao Yan without her knowing it.

As I watched, I started to feel choked up again.

The more I think about it, the angrier I get, and the angrier I get, the more annoyed I get.

I don't know why she, a grown man, looks so good. If he were uglier, if he hadn't saved her from the horse's hooves, she probably wouldn't be so obsessed with him, and she wouldn't be as miserable as she is now.

Lin Zhaoyue didn't want to look at him anymore, so she got up and went to the chaise longue, half leaning on it, but she fell asleep without knowing when.

Lin Qingchen went to bed earlier than them, but woke up later than Xiao Jingchen.

Xiao Jingchen only woke up when he asked the servant to come in and wash Xiao Yan's face.

When he heard Xiao Jingchen whispering to the servants to keep their voices down, he was moved.

His little nephew was so considerate that he asked those people to keep their voices down for fear of waking them up.

His heart felt warm, and he immediately got out of bed, walked over, hugged Xiao Jingchen and kissed him fiercely.

"Chen'er, uncle is awake now, you can..."

Lin Qingchen was halfway through her words when Xiao Jingchen covered her mouth.

Xiao Jingchen glanced at Lin Zhaoyue, who was lying on the chaise longue with her eyes closed, and hurriedly whispered:

"Shh, uncle, don't talk. Mother is still sleeping."

Lin Qingchen: "...your mother needs to sleep?"

Lin Qingchen really could never have imagined that wandering souls also need to sleep.

Xiao Jingchen: ...

"Okay, fine, uncle, just keep your voice down."

Lin Zhaoyue was awakened by a suppressed cry.

When she opened her eyes, she saw Xiao Jingchen crying there, and Lin Qingchen also had a serious look on his face.