mtl008 Chapter 450 Live for yourself
Chapter 450 Live for yourself
Three days passed in a flash, and the local authorities quickly submitted the case files to Chen Ji.
The case file not only stated the causes and consequences of Xiaolian's death, but also, through interrogation, made the three students confess that they had conspired with Li Linzhong and Xie An to trap Wang Changbo in the bamboo forest pond of Bailu Academy.
There was a mark of a white jade ring on Li Linzhong’s neck, and that white jade ring was worn on Xie An’s hand.
Among the three students, one provided testimony that Li Linzhong had secretly played with Xie An, and the white jade ring was the gadget that Li Linzhong gave to Xie An as a reward.
In addition, Xiaolian, who was forced to death by Li Linzhong, was Xie An's biological sister. Xie An had sufficient motives to kill Li Linzhong. It can be basically concluded that Li Linzhong was killed by Xie An in a way that they both died together.
The results of the case investigation were finally posted in the Bailu Academy in the form of a notice.
At this point, the truth came to light and the rumors surrounding Sun Qingyuan and Wang Changbo were refuted.
The three students who bullied Wang Changbo together with Li Linzhong and Xie An were not only expelled from Bailu Academy, but also sent to prison for intentional injury.
Sun Qingyuan had taken care of Xiaolian's funeral. Xie An is now buried with his sister, and the one who paid for the cemetery is still the great enemy Sun Qingyuan.
The incense, candles and paper money that Du Kongqing bought on the day he came to Chuzhou were finally successfully burned for Xiaolian.
After Wang Changbo fell into the water that day, he caught a cold, so he did not come with us to pay tribute today.
"Miss Xiaolian worked hard to earn money to support Xie An's studies. In order to save Xie An's life and your reputation, she would rather die."
"She seemed to have lived her whole life for others."
"But I think people shouldn't be like this. No matter where they come from or whether they are men or women, they should live for themselves."
Du Kongqing's voice was very low, as if he was talking to Sun Qingyuan, but it was more like he was talking to himself.
"You are still so naive, Kong Qing."
A handful of paper money was added to the fire. A breeze blew away some of the ashes, some of which flew past Sun Qingyuan, but this did not affect his indifferent expression at all.
"How many people in this world can live for themselves?"
"I never wanted to pass the imperial examinations or become an official. I studied hard day and night just to meet the expectations of my parents and friends."
"Kong Qing, is practicing medicine what you really want? Are you doing it just to pass on your family legacy?"
Are you living for yourself?
Du Kongqing's pupils shrank slightly, but she was only stunned for a few breaths before answering the question firmly:
"When I was a kid, my mother forced me to study medicine, for the purpose of 'inheriting the family legacy' as you said."
"But when I followed my father to practice medicine and save lives, and saw patients go from being tortured by illness to smiling, I fell in love with the medical skills that can save lives and heal the wounded."
"Later, something happened to my father and we had trouble even getting food. The cruel reality made me only think about survival and I had no time to think about the future."
"Later, I met Xiao Ran, who encouraged me to slowly pick up my abandoned medical skills."
"She even opened the Yikang Clinic for me because I had been treated by the village chief before. After the news spread in the village, villagers came to see me intermittently and stopped talking about my father's affairs."
"Being a doctor not only allows me to earn money to support myself, but also protects my father's reputation. It also gives me an unprecedented sense of satisfaction and accomplishment."
"Of course there are many reasons involved, but I am sure in my heart that this is the path I want to take. How can it not be considered living for myself?"
The moment the words fell, another breeze blew, and the ashes of paper money in front of the grave flew around Du Kongqing, as if Xiaolian was applauding and cheering for her.
"Sun Qingyuan, you said you don't want to take the imperial examination and become an official, and that you don't live for yourself. So what do you really want to do?"
The girl looked straight at him, her pretty eyes and brows filled with frank doubt and concern.
Sun Qingyuan subconsciously avoided her gaze. Those eyes were like the red sun in the sky, and he couldn't look directly at them.
After a struggle between his conscience and his desires, Sun Qingyuan raised a bitter smile.
His upright figure collapsed instantly, and in a moment, all the strength in his body seemed to be drained away.
"...I want to travel to all the famous mountains and rivers and try all the delicious food in the world."
"But I didn't do what I wanted to do. Instead, I returned to my hometown and made a living by selling calligraphy and paintings."
"I have been running away, drifting with the flow. I am a...coward."
Du Kongqing stared blankly at Sun Qingyuan, whose face was filled with dejection. He didn't know how to describe his current mood. He just woodenly sorted out the cause and effect of the matter.
"You need money for what you want to do, but your family has fallen on hard times and you have no money, so you just stay in Hedong Village and live a decadent life."
Thinking of the word "coward" from Sun Qingyuan's mouth, Du Kongqing laughed out loud, without any sarcasm, and said sincerely:
"Your understanding of yourself... is quite clear."
After she finished laughing, she suddenly felt a sour sensation in her nose and had a strong urge to cry.
Blinking her eyes, she continued:
"Escape means you are afraid of something. What are you afraid of?"
Sun Qingyuan felt a little depressed, perhaps because the person who asked the question was Du Kongqing, so he would not get angry and was willing to speak frankly.
"Everyone says that Sun Qingyuan is arrogant because of his talent, but who knows that the other side of 'arrogance' is 'inferiority'."
"Since I was a child, I have witnessed my father being humiliated and asked for bribes by government officials in order to do business, but he still had to smile in response. This kind of thing happens from time to time."
"Because my family is a merchant family, even the lowest-ranking official in the government office can boss my father around, and even make fun of my beautiful mother behind her back."
"My father asked me to study, take the imperial examinations, and become an official. He naively thought that as long as I became a senior official in the government, I would be able to hold my head high and avenge my previous humiliation."
"But people in the world are divided into different classes. Above the county magistrate is the prefect, and above the prefectural government offices are the six ministries and nine temples. Above those are the princes, nobles, and royal relatives..."
“As long as you are in it, there will always be people who have more power than you.”
"If you don't want to be crushed by power, you have to curry favor with the powerful, flatter your superiors, go along with the corrupt, and forget about the words 'speaking for the people' in the books of sages."
"So... why bother studying so hard and hoping to pass the imperial examination?"
Sun Qingyuan's eyes were full of confusion and struggle. He knew that no matter how much he said, it was all to escape, but he just didn't want to be trapped in the hierarchical officialdom.
"Kong Qing, do you know? After Xiaolian died, Xie An came to me and knelt down to beg me. He said -"
"Brother Sun, I beg you, please don't fight them anymore. You can't defeat them. They are powerful people. They can kill the lives of people like us who come from humble backgrounds with just one word!"
"I looked at Xie An, who had just lost his sister. I couldn't see any intention of revenge for Xiaolian on his face. I just felt it was extremely ironic!"
"I can't help but think that if someone loses his life because of a few words between classmates in the academy, wouldn't the open and covert fighting be even more uncontrollable when he enters the court?"
"A few days later, news of my parents' accident came in. If I hadn't verified from various sources after returning to the North and confirmed that their death was an accident, I would have really suspected that someone like Li Linzhong was behind it."
"Kong Qing, I always feel that since then, God has been pushing me forward. He told me--"
"Sun Qingyuan, be free!"
"You have no relatives left in the world, so be yourself without any restrictions!"
"From that time on, the proud and unruly Sun Qingyuan died, and what remained was only a cowardly and reclusive Sun Qingyuan."